You see, this entire trip has been quite a struggle for me. I honestly can say I have been homesick the full ten weeks and not a day went by where I didn’t think about my family and the people I missed back in the U.S. But you know what? I’ve come to accept this fact—it’s ok to miss people! It proves to me how great my family and friends are and has made me appreciate everyone so much more.
During my time here I have spent a lot of time wandering through London’s Royal Parks. This has played a HUGE part in getting me through the tough days (as well as Skype and my 2 best friends here, Kirsten and Monica). I usually took a book, snack, and my iPod loaded with John Mayer and Colbie Calliat, and found a nice grassy spot near a pond full of ducks. It was those times where I could relax and take my mind off whatever had me in a not so happy mood. I enjoyed spending time with my friends of course, but I have learned it’s important to have some Haley time where I can focus on myself and get my emotions in check.
My girls and I in Brugge
Another thing that was quite different from home was the people. People in London are much more reserved than back home. I love to smile at people on the streets—it makes me feel good, like I am brightening their day. Well in London, people do not particularly enjoy when you smile at them…one of my tourist books said “don’t smile at people you don’t know.” I just felt like I had to walk around with a blank look on my face and that made me feel kind of bad…but I have learned to smile to myself on the inside which, although it doesn’t have the same effect, still makes me feel good :)
Anyway, on to my next point-as many of you probably know, this trip was my very first time EVER being away from home (I chose quite the location for my first time on my own)!! It was something I have wanted to do ever since I went off to college but it was a lot harder than I thought it would be. For one thing, I have missed my mom’s cooing so much!!! I mean, the food in London is not bad, but it’s definitely not the same as Mrs. Fletcher’s :) But being thousands of miles away from the comforts of home has really forced me to step out of my comfort zone and become a much more independent person. I have had to do tons of things on my own, and I’ve also become quite good at asking questions! Who would have thought!
I'll miss this girl!!!
Anyway, on to my next point-as many of you probably know, this trip was my very first time EVER being away from home (I chose quite the location for my first time on my own)!! It was something I have wanted to do ever since I went off to college but it was a lot harder than I thought it would be. For one thing, I have missed my mom’s cooing so much!!! I mean, the food in London is not bad, but it’s definitely not the same as Mrs. Fletcher’s :) But being thousands of miles away from the comforts of home has really forced me to step out of my comfort zone and become a much more independent person. I have had to do tons of things on my own, and I’ve also become quite good at asking questions! Who would have thought!
Girls in Milano...seems like that was soooo long ago
I remember that first week calling (Skyping actually) my family as I was balling my eyes out, snot dripping down my face (attractive yeah…) I just felt horrible for some reason and couldn’t stop missing them! I even told them I wanted to come home and didn’t think I could do it…which totally broke my heart to say because giving up is not something I enjoy doing. Going home probably would have been the biggest mistake I could have ever made and something I would always have regretted. Thankfully, my parents calmed me down and made me push through it.
London has helped me get out of the rut I was stuck in back home. I’d follow a strict schedule/diet and was so uptight about doing the same thing every day that if my schedule was thrown off, I would let it ruin my whole day. I’d get really moody and upset and it just wasn’t fun being in that kind of mood all the time. But these 10 weeks have made me realize following a strict routine like that actually sucks quite a bit. Take for example today…I took my book, went to a coffee shop, and read for an hour! Just sat and read…I can’t imagine ever doing that before. If I wasn’t doing something productive all the time, it felt like my day was a waste. Life in London is so much more relaxed and easy-paced and I am starting to fall in love with it.
Another thing about me is that I am what you could call a health freak. Exercise is super important to me and is a huge part of who I am. Typically, I have to work out everyday otherwise I feel like garbage. In London, my mindset is totally different. If I miss a run/workout, it’s OK! I don’t get angry or upset and usually I even feel better J I enjoy this new mindset and feel like it’s going to make being at home a lot more enjoyable than before this trip. This has also carried over to my “obsession” with healthy food. Now, I eat what I want, when I want (like they say eat what you want in moderation!) and feel better about myself than I have in a long time! Besides, who could resist a fresh pastry, or some fish-n-chips? Not this kid :)
One reason my routines have become so relaxed is that to me, time does not really exist here. Yes, I go to class on time and stuff like that but I am not constantly worried about what time it is or am checking my watch/looking for a clock. I go about my day doing what I want, when I want and don’t try to cram a hundred million things into a 24 hour period of time. I feel better about myself than I ever have before and can truly say this experience has made me grow-up and grow out of annoying, stupid habits I had.
London is a trip I will never ever forget and has opened a whole new chapter in my life…I feel so lucky to have had this opportunity and have seen so many amazing things I never even dreamed of seeing. It’s now time to pack up my flat and say goodbye to those new friends I have made. Hopefully we can stay in touch and get together and reminisce about our trip.
But right now, I can’t wait to see my family and give them the biggest hugs they have ever received. For one last time, here’s the Little Londoner, signing out J
Girls of flat 20A




